My holiday break was an interesting mixture of sadness, fun, and adventure. Bad things happened, good things happened. The highlight was going to Busch Gardens with my beautiful Andrew <3 we had such a blast. We brought in the new year watching The Art of Getting By, which if you’ve failed to see it you are really missing out. For Christmas I got a bunch of rose scented bath stuff, a Chi straightener, Harajuku perfume (muh fav), cute hello kitty pajammies, some new clothes, and lots of candy. So this holiday season treated me fairly well, I’d love to hear about yours!

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have been going quite nicely. Tomorrow is my dear Andrew’s 17th birthday, I’m baking him cinnamon apple cookies, (: School’s going alright, I quite like my classes. I’ve been feeling really inspired lately, like I need to be doing something fantastic. I’ll try to write more often, promise. <33

I just feel alone. So damn alone. Don’t get me wrong, I have a loving family, boyfriend, and friends who I can always talk to. Or at least that’s what they say, anyway. I’ve had so much on my mind lately, trivial type things, really. My mind is so consumed with a dark past and an uncertain future. I battle with myself over the stupid mistakes I’ve made. It’s been so hard for me to move forward in my life. What am I so scared of? The thought of anymore loss in my life makes me sick. God, I just need someone to talk to. Someone who will listen, understand, and empathize. Am I asking for too much? It’s wrong for me to expect my boyfriend to listen to my story day in and day out, but where else can I go?

I’m trapped, someone please get me out of here..

I have a lot of laundry, but what’s new? Summer assignments are taunting me o.O

I thinks it’s going to be a great school year. \m/

Sorry I haven’t posted in awhile, I’ve been super busy. School starts in a week and I’ve been busting my ass on summer assignments and spending every free moment with my Andrew.  Tomorrow my love and I are going to the cinema. I GET TO FINALLY SEE WINNIE THE POOH!!!!!! \m/ I <3 you guys and I hope your lives are going just as well as mine atm.

And now he’s here, right next to me. This is him. *kisssssssssssssssssss* c:

God, it’s so good to have him back.

Gunna go make some brownies <3333333

Until my Andrew comes home! Omg ~ so happy. Words cannot express how excited I am for him to come home. This is the home stretch, I’ve made it this far, right? A part of me knows this will be the longest and most difficult week yet, but I know that I can make it. Every time I think about another second without him, my stomach hurts, my mouth goes dry, and I just shut down. I just have to keep my mind off of it, which basically means cleaning my ass off. For once this OCD is good for something <3